JIAYI ZHU
When I was a child,
my parents’ overprotectiveness often prevented me from doing what I wanted to do.
They do everything for me to avoid risks.
people say that's spoil, that's love.
In the process of growing up, I have developed a habit of observing the connection between people's personalities and their experiences of growth and living environment. Simultaneously, I reflect on the shaping of my own character under my parents' education. I was considered a child who grew up in a spoiled situation because my parents always did everything for me and prevented me from doing anything they think is not good. I was grateful for everything, but I knew the impact it had on my personality. and my struggle to escape this spoil.
Overprotection is a behavior based on love but also damaged.
I think overprotection is a more appropriate description of this behavior than spoil.
Artists research
Lick and lather Janine Antoni
Lick and Lather comprises fourteen self-portrait busts that Janine Antoni cast in two materials, with seven in chocolate, and seven in soap.
When I saw this work, combined with my growth experience, I felt a complex emotion, one waxing and waning. The touch of love gradually makes people lose themselves. This kind of love may be too much.
Sometimes behavior is like a double-edged sword, expressing love while causing harm, just like destroying and repairing relationships.
and I also think about the best elements to this feelings.
Flash love all Haruhiko Kawaguchi
Sometimes, too much love makes people breathless.
Rethink
How do I feel under this “protection”?
My reaction to this.
My mood at the moment.
When I thought deeply about the relationship between me and my parents, I found that I had been neglecting the relationship between me and my father. I suddenly realized that in fact, my father was the rule-maker when I was growing up, and my mother was just the rule-executor.
I need to follow a lot of rules,
Dad says,
Girls should sit and stand properly,
Girls shouldn't dress too revealingly,
Don't apply lipstick, it's not good for your body,
Girls shouldn't have tattoos,
Don't stray too far from home, just find a stable job,
Don't dye your hair in various colors.
Dad says...
I recalled the resistance I had with my father when I was growing up because I rebelled against these rules, and extracted items that had been destroyed when my father got angry.
In the moment of destruction, It was also the moment when my obedient and perfect image was shattered in my father’s mind.
My dad still tries to keep me on the “right track”
Crayons and paper should be flat and smooth in people‘s definition.
Then I collected methods and tools for repairing these items. I try to repair these broken objects, Like my dad was trying to correct me. But no matter how we fix it, it still leaves traces.
REFERENCE
Family snaps
Jo Spence and Patricia Holland
Fatherhood
- Philosophy for Everyone: The Dao of Daddy
Fritz Alihoff
Objects in the family have a very strong function of carrying memories and are unique elements. An object is like a photo.
So I think a certain item with specific reference is very necessary and irreplaceable
I am trying to understand the formation of the education model for children and the meaning behind the behavior from the perspective of the father.
TESTING : WET PAPER
I chose the cover of a high school textbook as a paper restoration test because it was the exact one that my father had wetted during the argument, and I tried to express the relationship between me and my father by "repairing" it.
I choose a hair straightener to repair my high school textbook cover that was wet with water. Because this is the most common tool in my life, and it is also the tool I used to repair "that" textbook.
If the paper is repaired after being exposed to water, it will become curled and deformed.
Then I printed my ID photo on the back, which perfectly complied with my father's rules: no dyed hair, normal clothes, no exaggerated makeup, and a decent smile.
My face contorts on the repaired paper, like I can obediently follow the rules, but the marks are still there. Human independence determines that we cannot survive completely dependent on other people's thoughts. My actions can be limited but my thoughts cannot. Overprotection is like a box, and the human body is cotton but the mind is water. The box can restrict the shape of the cotton but water will flow out of the gaps
I referred to the paper materials of high school textbooks and also tried other different paper observation effects.
FINAL WORK
TESTING : BROKEN CRAYON
I broke the crayon and fixed it.
It's like the moment a quarrel breaks out
The moment the crayon shattered was the moment my obedient image in my father's heart was shattered.
Dad loves to smoke, lighters and crayons are like the relationship between Dad and me. Fire is the tool used to repair crayons but it burns, like my father's love for me. I'm grateful and feeling pain at the same time
The crayons were repaired, but instead of being straight and smooth like one would think a crayon should be, each crayon had its own mark.
Eventually I grew into my own shape.
FINAL WORK
